The other extreme end of the passion spectrum is that of fire, or those feelings that seem to make the heart beat faster and the breaths come shorter and more rapidly. I have found myself to be quickly engulfed in what I thought was love, but later only discovered there to be lust, however the three ladies identified here each provided something so important in who I’ve become as a man and as a significant other. The powers that drove me to connect with these women, in some cases faded after being intimate or becoming too close, in other cases laid the foundation of embers that ignited the fires for the following stages. This was the education of love… As I have reviewed my life from loves perspective, three key factors and people stick out in my mind.
Madman Diary _ Part 2
Madman Diary _ Part 1
As a veteran of many different obstacles in my life, I find myself struggling with the heart and I am convinced that I am incapable of understanding it. A former sniper in the USMC, I saw and tasted death, even when there were no “official” wars, we sought out and found violence even amongst ourselves. Again in the times after the service, I served with honor, several motorcycle clubs with the use of my fists or knives, I knew death, he was a close and dear friend. I should explain that I have never been a small or fragile individual, and know that I have a certain level of intimidation built-in with my now six feet, two hundred and fifty pound frame of which very little shakes of body fat. I have felt human life slip from its earthly bounds, between my bare hands; the memory haunts me today, many years later. Yea, I know hate. Internal understanding of the truth was elusive as I sought to remain anonymous within society, a ghost in the machine. I never feared retribution or retaliation, my mind so full of rage and the negative emotion of fast tracked hate, in my mind, I was death.
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